I know you are here
You’ve made yourself at home for quite some time now
You, this pain
Requiring my constant attention

No need to remind me so often of your presence
No need to make such a big fuss
I know you are here
And I have found peace with you in my home

I am offering you a place where you can feel welcomed
Where you can express yourself
A place where I can learn from you
Where we could learn from each other

I am tired of fighting you,
Exhausted from overthinking you, analyzing you, dissecting you
I know now that I do not hold answers for you
I do not have the solution for your relief

Some pains are meant to journey with us through life
They become part of our stories, part of our identity
We learn to live with them
To be a for each other, a reminder of our stories and values

For so long, you served as an armor
Protecting me reminds me of a constant danger
And I thank you for that

Today I am offering you peace
It is my turn to take care of you
You could take some rest
This little girl is safe now

With love always,

RD